One Hot Mess

As illustrated by Dr Zoidberg.

I've changed my mind about Nano several times this weekend. First I changed my mind about doing it at all. Then I decided I would do it. Then I decided I wouldn't do
Slow Burn, I would do some steampunk-esque YA instead. Then I decided to do Slow Burn after all, and then I decided not to do anything because my wrist hurt from all the flip-flopping.

Now I've decided to do it. But I'm thinking I won't be doing Slow Burn. Here's the thing: I really want to be a published author. It's pretty much all I have in the way of ambition (except owning a donkey) and in order to achieve that, I need to focus more. I currently have three novels, all of which I think have a decent chance of selling with a bit of work, and I'm focusing on just them for a while. Which means Nano will be dedicated either to A) re-writing Fire and Moonlight or Wild or B) finishing off Death for the Born. I really don't see DftB being another 50k long, so option A is most likely.

Sigh. Watch this space as I frantically change my mind again and again for the next two weeks.

Adding to my crisis is the fact that I overslept by almost two hours this morning and haven't had a shower or anything to eat.

I can't help but worry that taking part in Nanowrimo is a bad idea when my RSI is currently at that "OHGODTHEPAIN!" stage most of the time. The rest of the time it's just the "why does my wrist keep clicking and why are my fingers numb?" stage. Trying to write 50k in 30 days seems a foolish idea, all things considered. I am on the NHS waiting list for physiotherapy, but judging from past experience, it would probably be quicker to chop my arm off and replace it with a hand-crafted wooden limb than it would be to get the NHS to do anything about it. Sadly carpentry is not amongst my talents.

However! I am determined to give it a shot. I have my wrist brace. I have a steady supply of painkillers. Most importantly, I have a reward of tasty, tasty sushi to look forward to. We shall see...