"Psychologically, my case is most interesting."

So, anyway, I'm going to be 25 on Tuesday. I feel this is quite a significant age. I'll no longer be in my early twenties, and I can probably no longer avoid calling myself a woman, as opposed to a girl. I can't say I'm particularly happy about my continued aging, but as the alternative is being dead (or preserving my youth through ghoulish HP Lovecraft-style experiments involving ice and so forth), I suppose I shouldn't be too disappointed at it.

The thing is, 25 seems incredibly grown-up to me, and I am by no means grown-up. I own the She-Ra movie, for God's sake. And I still have My Little Ponies, although Pip bought them for me, so that probably is okay. I remember David turning 25, when I was a whimsical 22, and I remember thinking how sussed he was. I'm so not sussed.

So here are some things I'm going to do to bring myself to that level of sussed-ness I feel a 25-year-old should be at:

Discover my body
Exercise is something I tend to do accidentally, if at all, and I would like this to change. I want to have more energy and less fat on my thighs. 

Get confident, stupid!
I'm planning to discuss coming off the antidepressants with my doctor. This time I'd like to stay off them. I accept that my depression is biological and will probably come back, but I want to be a position to tackle it next time. I've been reading some books on self-esteem and anxiety and I think it's probably time I put what I've been reading into practice.

Beat the boss
(Not literally. Although sometimes she deserves it.) I don't want to be at the Institute this time next year. I want a job where I care about what I'm doing, and I earn enough money to enjoy myself when I'm not at work. I took this job for all the wrong reasons and I don't plan to do that again.

Eye of the tiger, baby
I'm going to get what I want, dammit, and what I want is to be a published author. I'm going to try to stop beating myself up about my writing/lack of etc... and just freaking write. Talia Gryphon got published, Sunny got published, I can get published.