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naomi_jayEver have one of those days when you wake up and your head is just full of stuff? Way too much stuff to possibly deal with in just one day, especially when the bulk of that day is going to spent at work? Yeah, that is today.
So I am now officially behind on BLOOD HUNT, thanks to having been ill all week (I have been so ill so often this summer, it's ridiculous). I'm not panicking yet because at least I know what I'm doing, which is always a good thing, but I do anticipate a heavy amount of editing on this book. The atmosphere doesn't feel right to me. I want this dark, claustrophobic sense running through the book, and I don't think I've nailed that. But hey, that's what the second draft is for, right? Right. I'm still hopeful of having a first draft done before I go to Manchester next week, but don't quote me on it.
I am struggling very hard not to be distracted. I think because I know I'm nearly done with the first draft, my brain is leaping ahead to the next project already, which is annoying. I woke up with the first line of the next Ethan novella in my head (for those interested, it's going to be, "Let me clear up a couple of misconceptions about private dicks. We are not all sex machines to all the chicks, for starters."). And I was like, yeah! Ethan! And then I thought I should probably write Halflife before I write another Ethan novella, so then I was all like, yeah! Yasmin! on the bus to work, and mentally writing the first chapter for that.
And then I got to work and remembered I A) still have work to do on Wild, really, and B) want to write the dark YA novel after BLOOD HUNT anyway, so then I was all, yeah! Werewolves and Satanism and eating disorders!
And then I checked through my emails and LJ and saw![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
yolandasfetsos mention a new epublisher and immediately started wondering what I could write to submit there, because I am nothing if not compulsive, and when I see things like this, I obsess about them manically for a few days before reason returns.
And now I'm just going to stop everything, because BLOOD HUNT won't finish itself (and nobody will give me a minion to dictate to), and that's the priority. After that, the dark YA. After that, everything else. I think my problem is, I want to write so many things so much, and get them all published, and I when I decide I want to do something, I want to do it immediately, so I kind of swamp myself with projects I can't possibly do any work for because I don't have the time, and then I panic and feel I'm not working hard enough.
But actually, dare I say it, I am working pretty damn hard on my writing this year, allowing for the arm injury, various issues, and the day job. I'm not anywhere near where I want to be yet, but I'm a hell of a lot further along than I was this time last year, so that's got to count for something. And I'm not failing. I have to keep reminding myself of that and remove the "must try harder" millstone from around my neck.
Okay, I didn't mean to go all sombre and introspective there. Um... Kittens and flowers and chocolates! Yay!
So I am now officially behind on BLOOD HUNT, thanks to having been ill all week (I have been so ill so often this summer, it's ridiculous). I'm not panicking yet because at least I know what I'm doing, which is always a good thing, but I do anticipate a heavy amount of editing on this book. The atmosphere doesn't feel right to me. I want this dark, claustrophobic sense running through the book, and I don't think I've nailed that. But hey, that's what the second draft is for, right? Right. I'm still hopeful of having a first draft done before I go to Manchester next week, but don't quote me on it.
I am struggling very hard not to be distracted. I think because I know I'm nearly done with the first draft, my brain is leaping ahead to the next project already, which is annoying. I woke up with the first line of the next Ethan novella in my head (for those interested, it's going to be, "Let me clear up a couple of misconceptions about private dicks. We are not all sex machines to all the chicks, for starters."). And I was like, yeah! Ethan! And then I thought I should probably write Halflife before I write another Ethan novella, so then I was all like, yeah! Yasmin! on the bus to work, and mentally writing the first chapter for that.
And then I got to work and remembered I A) still have work to do on Wild, really, and B) want to write the dark YA novel after BLOOD HUNT anyway, so then I was all, yeah! Werewolves and Satanism and eating disorders!
And then I checked through my emails and LJ and saw
yolandasfetsos mention a new epublisher and immediately started wondering what I could write to submit there, because I am nothing if not compulsive, and when I see things like this, I obsess about them manically for a few days before reason returns.And now I'm just going to stop everything, because BLOOD HUNT won't finish itself (and nobody will give me a minion to dictate to), and that's the priority. After that, the dark YA. After that, everything else. I think my problem is, I want to write so many things so much, and get them all published, and I when I decide I want to do something, I want to do it immediately, so I kind of swamp myself with projects I can't possibly do any work for because I don't have the time, and then I panic and feel I'm not working hard enough.
But actually, dare I say it, I am working pretty damn hard on my writing this year, allowing for the arm injury, various issues, and the day job. I'm not anywhere near where I want to be yet, but I'm a hell of a lot further along than I was this time last year, so that's got to count for something. And I'm not failing. I have to keep reminding myself of that and remove the "must try harder" millstone from around my neck.
Okay, I didn't mean to go all sombre and introspective there. Um... Kittens and flowers and chocolates! Yay!
